Hug Tight

Growing up I never thought I would loose the ones I love, I wanted to keep them in a box forever and whenever I needed them I wanted to take them out and hug them and make them promise never to leave me.
Now that I am older, I am aware that is not real and the ones I love will someday leave me and I cannot keep them forever. I learned that this week when my grandpa died. My grandpa was someone that unfortunately I took for granted, he was a rock that would never and could never budge. He was an electrician, he was a rattlesnake wrestler, not someone who would leave this world unhappy. When I learned about his death and how it happened there was so many things I wanted to say to him. I wanted to ask him why, I wanted to give him one last hug and I wanted to sit down and take away all his pain, but I couldn't do that and that makes me feel useless.
I wanted to tell my Grandpa that he was my favorite part of Pennsylvania, that I talked about him all the time and always thought he was so 'Cute'. My grandpa loved hard candies and that was something that we shared. He would always have them in his pocket and give me one when he saw me. That is what I will always remember about my grandpa, among other things. I saw him two weeks before this happened and gave him a hug and promised I would see him soon, had I known I would have hugged him extra hard and whispered 'I love you'. But something tells me, he knew. I do not always believe of an after life, but I must admit it does make it easier. Every night, I blow a kiss and whisper goodnight, that is not only for him but for my entire family, I love you.
So, when you see your family and your friends hug them extra hard, because you never know when it will be your last hug.

I can do that....

So my brother got married YEA! It was a gorgeous wedding on a VERY windy day. It was nice to see everyone and see my brother happy, that was the nicest thing.

I was sitting there watching something other then the wedding for awhile though, I was watching the photographers sitting there thinking " I can do that" I KNOW that taking pictures is a bit more complicated then pointing and shooting, but it looked like SOO much fun. Everyone is happy when taking pictures of a wedding and it looked like so much fun. I got to thinking HEY, I can be a photographer. You may be thinking "Huh?" But really, I feel as though I can really get into this. My uncle photographed our wedding and did an AMAZING job, while I am far from being on the same playing field as him, I feel as though I can get there with practice and the right equipment.

So after a lengthy car ride with my mom and multiple stops to take pictures of mailboxes (Yea, we are going to make a mailbox poster) I decided that I want to get a nice SLR digital camera, the quest was on. Now, for everyone who knows me I am not the most patient person and when I want something I want it NOW whether it be a camera, a haircut or a piece of chocolate when the urge hits I NEED IT NOW. So by Wednesday I am a proud owner of a D40 X Nikon camera, I am in love!!! I can just see myself now taking the action shots, that make people smile and cry. I want to be the photographer that people call to take pictures of their family, wedding, birthday party etc. Dare to dream I know, but I really feel that if nothing else this can be a hobby for me. Granted I have had my camera for what not even 24 hours, but I FEEL the photography juices running in my blood.

Well, we shall see.. I am off to read about my new camera...More to come.